So I haven’t been feeling much like talking about Gnosticism, so I put my energy into redoing my website. Check it out:
June 2006
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June 15, 2006
June 4, 2006
I went to bed last night in quite a state. I had a lot of questions that I don’t have any answers to. I begged Sophia to help me listen for the answers. I knew she was screaming at me to get me to understand, I just don’t know how to listen sometimes.
I am in a relationship right now that is destined to make me unhappy. I have a long and complicated history with this person, and if things continue as they are, I have a long and complicated future with her as well. (more…)
June 1, 2006
The film “Donnie Darko” ends with a song by Tears For Fears called Mad World. The line that sticks out for me is “These dreams in which I’m dying are the best I ever had.” That is really powerful for me, even though I tend to ignore that feeling most of the time.
I was talking to a very close friend today with whom I share everything about myself. We have a lot in common and we understand each other better than I have ever experienced with anybody else. It is truly a blessing to have this relationship, and I hope you all have somebody like that in your lives.
At any rate, we were talking about my allergies. I don’t usually have any problems with allergies, but today the pollen is bothering me. She said that our declining air quality combined with the increased use of antibacterial soap and purified water and the like have contributed to the increase in allergy sufferers. I then pulled a knee-jerk argument out that I used to make all the time when talking about health issues:
Anthony (6/1/2006 1:26:25 PM): it’s true, i think as a species we are devolving
Anthony (6/1/2006 1:27:00 PM): survival of the fittest as a means of reporoduction hasn’t been a factor in humanity for many generations
Anthony (6/1/2006 1:27:23 PM): so all this faulty genetic material is being passed on
While I don’t think I’m wrong in my assesment of the genetic health of our species, I realized later that I really pulled that out of my ass more out of habit than anything else. The fact that we no longer die from things like, for example, appendicitis, allow us to grow intellectually and spiritually. If appendicitis still killed people I wouldn’t be here typing to you. So technology, specifically medicine, has allowed our species to thrive well beyond what it would be capable of on it’s own.
So we live longer, odds are much better that our children will live to reach sexual maturity and live longer and have more children who also have an increased chance of survival. This factor alone is responsible for art, religion, and society. So there’s that…
The problem for me is what we choose to do with those extra sixty years. I will paraphrase Ben Folds when he says that we drive our cars to jobs we hate so we can have enough money to drive our cars. We’ve been given an oportunity to live so much longer and we waste all that time on the persuit of things that the archons tell us we must consume. I don’t have a solution here, it’s just something I choose to complain about.
I decided recently to go back to college and get a second degree. Many of my friends have told me how foolish I would be to give up my “life” to go back to school for music when I have no intention of teaching. They would understand if I wanted to teach music because I would need a degree to do that, but to go to college for the sake of going to college is a waste of time to them. What I realized they were saying is that they were concerned that I would be giving up my job to go back to school. And it was nice of them to be worried for me, but what’s so great about a job? For that matter, what’s so great about the car?
I feel like stopping now before I get off onto something else.
For your consideration,
